Before I left on the Camino Portugues, I penned this short Reflection thinking it was not worthy of publication. When I returned last week, I realized, although short, it was something I wanted to share. More on my trip in the coming weeks.
A few weeks before I left for the Camino, an ear worm began to invade my thoughts. For those of you who are unfamiliar with the term, it describes a song that permeates your thoughts, but that you cannot quite recall the name of the song or its’ artist. In my case, I am well aware of both, but for some reason, I cannot explain, it continues to claim real estate in my head.
As I drove around town making last minute preparations for my trip or going to or coming from social functions, I would play the song repeatedly. I have never been so entranced with a song. The lyrics did not contain catchy lines or poignant thoughts that made me want to hear them over and over. It just somehow felt right.
I think it was the rhythm that preoccupied me. The rhythm seemed to be calling me. It felt comfortable, upbeat, and dare I say, optimistic. During one 40-minute drive home from one of my hikes, I played it continuously the entire drive home.
After about a week, I slowly began to realize that the song was somehow a metaphor for my new life. That I am finally finding a rhythm to my life without Amy. One that has perhaps begun to turn from a daily battle with grief to one of anticipation of something more. Something new and wonderful.
It could be just the anticipation of walking the Camino Portugues, but I think it is more than that. I feel a thrumming beat of openness to life and the possibilities it still offers me. Even a feeling of excitement for what is next.
In my last reflection, Shiver & Savor, I stated I did not know why I was walking the Camino yet. Just like I did not know what I was going to do with the rest of my life. My friend Laura politely pointed out to me “You’re already doing it!”
Maybe my new sense of rhythm is coming from finally accepting that whatever life holds for me, it is ok to let that joy inside of me come out again. As I begin my trek this week, I am going to try to not overthink things and just let the rhythm of my steps lead me forward with a little spring in my step.
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I’m so very glad you decided to share this entry! Sounds like you’re choosing joy:)
Good morning Mark, I too am glad you decided to share this reflection. It’s funny how certain things can affect thoughts and/or emotions in a person. I also agree with your friend Laura’s observation. Have a great day!
Hi Mark! I am so glad you walked the Camino! It is a wonderful journey! That journey is the one you have been on with your other “hikes” This journey is a walk – it is a time to relax, think and enjoy the life happening around you. It is an accomplishment – different than the Grand Staircase. I wish you peace! Kathy Vitale
Thanks for all your sharing. I’m glad that you had a good trip.